A recent dream that may be a cue for an important change. Here it is, no comments.
It's early in the morning and I suddenly realize that I've been thinking and dreaming on the same software design problem for at least two hours. This is insane and I want it to stop, I need silence and some peace of mind. [This part can be either a dream or a waking experience or both, I don't really know].
I'm confronted with a shadow. It's a somewhat formless shadow and it moves independent from me. I'm somewhere outdoors in empty space, there's nothing to be seen around and it doesn't matter. I feel terrorized by the shadow and I feel I need to fight it. I'm on my knees and start stabbing the shadow with a wooden pin. The shadow does not weaken its influence on me. I try to keep my mind silenced as my life may depend on it. I wonder if I'll survive. But this event be just like being locked at the border awakening from sleep [when you're awake but the body doesn't move because it thinks you're still sleeping], eventually I always succeed in coming back.
Suddenly the complete right side of my belly starts hurting from just under my chest to my hips. I'm surprised, I didn't know something was wrong there. I hold my belly with my left hand and keep stabbing the shadow with my right hand while still on my knees.