last nite i had a dream that i killed myself. it was so weird and shocking but it could've been so real.
in the dream i don't think my death was intentional, but more just wanting to erase a mistake. i remember sitting on the floor and facing a table upon which was a glass and a bottle of asprin. everything was blurry. i think i was crying.
i poured some vodka into the glass and opened the bottle of asprin. i turned and while turning i knocked over the bottle, spewing little red and yellow pills everywhere. so i grabbed at the pills and started swollowing them, washing it all down with the vodka. just grabbing and gulping and crying.
