He first handed me some letters, a box of them, i think. there was a long letter and some smaller ones inside. The long letter was written to me: it was some sort of goodbye letter. The smaller ones were little notes that he had taken all along, with little snippets of conversation or questions he had for me. It was a sort of scrapbook of rachel memories and he was giving it to me for some reason. This is so patchy.
In my dream i htink i knew i was dreaming, and i told kaelan about how it was such a weird dream, but a few minutes later I was back in the dream again.
He had been separated from his family for a long time or something. He was still with brittany, but he was all worn down and depressed looking. He said he was going to kill himself or something because he was so depressed.
Somehow we ended up in a dressing room (me, britt and malcolm) and he was talking about how he was never over me and that i was the reason he decided to return from australia. I remember feeling so warm inside, like i loved him. Brittany was pissed at me and hated me.
But malcolm decided to turn his act around and he "returned home" to a welcoming family. He became a good person. We went to his house (we knew exactly where his house was) and we met him in the kitchen. He was smiling and baking cookies. Then we listened to phone messages that we had left for him on his cell phone. I was surprised that he had kept mine (once again, the warm feeling). He kept smiling at me and not smiling at Brittany.
Then i listened to one of the phone messages i had left him and it was so long and winded. i was so embarrassed by it and ithought i sounded like a complete freak, but he didn't seem to think so.
I think he wanted to get together with me, but something in me was telling me not to, because i didn't trust him.
Later on we were embracing and kissing and it was very affectionate and passionate, but i pushed him away and he started crying, claiming he had changed.
