there have been two of them now, over the past few nights. the last one was so vivid i was sure i must have been gyrating in my sleep.
the first one wasnt as bad, but it felt so real. i was walking down the alleyway near my old school with lloyd my recent ex (whom i still like) and thinking "i wont let him do anything, i need to stand up for myself and not get caught up, ill tell him itll hurt me..." and he held my hand. i remember specifically the way he held it, twisting it around in his own, then he put his arms around me and i knew i should stop it but i really didnt want to. he pushed me against the fence and kissed me.
the second dream i had last night. he came round and we had sex on my utility room floor. it wasnt just a fleeting thing like in my regular dreams, it lasted as long as actual sex and it was like i could feel it, the whole experience was really detailed. the next part was that i was wearing this thin minidress with no pants on but he still had his jeans on, i was gyrating on top of him as we kissed but then my dad came in and i had left a wet patch of cum on the front of his jeans. he had to roll over to hide it and i had to make it look like i was wearing pants.
after this i had another dream that felt as though it was connected to the previous one. i was in a shopping centre place with no windows and no real purpose to the building. i was on a fragile staricase that had almost broken and i was really scared, the general feeling of the dream was that something really bad like a tidal wave or earthquake was going to happen, something we had no power over, but in the dream i didnt know what the fear was caused by just that something terrible would happen. i was trying to find annabel because i was meant to stay at her house but i couldnt.
